Monday, April 30, 2007
when words become so hard to saywhen saying 'i love you' means something moreits either us or the friendship we've builtdont give me false hopes darlingplease say you doI.AM.NOT.DESPERATE.
haha my usual emo days/nights
studying for mids can be fun, depending on wat subj and your mood of course
and i think i seriously feel i need to blog this down
i think the school still looks down on us, angklung
its very sad when you think about it cause what more do they want?
they dont even come for our syf =//
ok im upset and not feeling well so im off. byee
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6:04 AM
Friday, April 27, 2007
el exam was okay
hope i pass it, at least
dunno wat im doing here instead of studying for hmt exam tmr
hope its easy =/
plus cikgu's treating us tmr! ;DD
andandand
CRESCENT ANGKLUNG GOT SILVER!!so proud of my dearest angklung girls x)
rmb we're the "UNIQUE PERFECT PRETTY PURPLE PEOPLE!" ;D
good job girls, really proud of you guys
and i tell you its really worth the effort
you might think, oh, its only a silver
but hey
the judging for all the performing arts had become more strict this time round
and even though that is so, we've improved from a BRONZE to a superb SILVER
in a short time too
and only like one sch got gold with honours? siglap sec, very expected
and only like two schs got gold?
and only 6 got silver!
so must say its really a great achievement for us all
hopefully this will mark a new start, a new beginning for crescent angklung
GO ANGKLUNG! ;D
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5:51 AM
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
my back has been aching like hell for the past few days
hate it
neck kinda ached too cause im sitting in second row and specs are so troublesome, cant look at the screen from the top of my eyes, must really look up. urgh
im becoming amanda#2. haha, inside joke
omg i owe so much hmwlk
and i so need to study x(
guess who im missing
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7:32 AM
Monday, April 23, 2007
THE RED JUMPSUIT APPARATUS LYRICS- Your Guardian Angel
When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm stronger I've figured out
How this world turns cold and breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
It's ok. It's ok. It's ok.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
Cuz you're my, you're my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away,
Please tell me you'll stay, stay
Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be ok
Though my skies are turning gray
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
omg this song is total love <3
im mad at liy cause she saw frh and hnz at jp >:(
haha, im feeling kinda happy and light today (?)
syf this thurs, all the best ppl and hopefully we can at least get a gold.
plusplus i seriously totally screwed up my chem test today. IM SO DOOMED ):
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6:56 AM
Saturday, April 21, 2007
omg
im actually finding dresses online now when im supp to be studying =//
i swear forever21's dresses are so niceeee and cheap. haha
like this!
http://www.forever21.com/product.asp?catalog%5Fname=FOREVER21&category%5Fname=Dresses&product%5Fid=2036259846&Page=2and this!!
http://www.forever21.com/product.asp?catalog%5Fname=FOREVER21&category%5Fname=Casual+Tops&product%5Fid=2038231224&Page=allomg so pretty :)
i want it! *HINTSHINTS*
sighhhs
feel so emo now (or rather, lately)
and its raining outside now. smiles.
i have the sudden pressure to do well in everything. =//
ahh i think im going nuts
i want you HAHAHA
(p.s. i love aqilah! :D)
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12:15 AM
Thursday, April 19, 2007
i have a terrible headache now
guess i've been working too much and resting too little
studies lasting usually till midnight nowadays, including hmwk
im taking a break now, which means i will have to delay my ss and hist essays, not study for amath, emath, el, mly and chem!
now when i look at my super ridiculous study schedule, i'll laugh.
haha
im going crazyxzxzxz
not to mention the tanglin mall incident
ooh. and yest was bimbo day2!
hehh, inside joke.
andandand im so thankful i've been showing improvement in my studies, by 2 grades for emath, 3 grades for amath, 6 grades for mly and 1 grade for ss! (at least i improved in a short period of time x) )
i think thats good, or maybe not. haha. mid yr papers sure killers one.
and i miss talking to my goldENtertainer. :(
thats the only reason why i hate the fact that my phone's been confiscated.
like i'd be wondering day and night whats happening to you or whether you're okay or not!
andand i cried during mly thinking of you
(or rather what i just realised had happened. i know im slow =/ )
tc okay (omg im like talking to a ghost)
and be a good angell, i'll always be here if you need anth (ok, not really, not now that is)
andandand i'll always love youuuu x)))
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4:52 AM
Sunday, April 15, 2007
i dont know why im going crazy over you, and you
i can cry at the sight of you, cause you dunno how much i miss you
now that i love these two, wat should i do?
(sort of rhymed but never intended to make it rhyme)
im feel so emo and random today
song of the day: kiss goodbye x)
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6:45 AM
Friday, April 13, 2007
yesterday made me think so much
no elaborations on that though
i realised i've been praying a lot lately, as in praying for every little thing i do
when im scared i pray, when im upset/disappointed/angry i pray, when im tired of life i pray, when i have no way out i pray. so its like i keep praying
wonder what happened to me
mid yr coming=studying
gotta work much harder for amath if i wanna stay
so its either i drop amath, bio or csp
most prolly csp, that is if i work hard enough to stay in amath
saw sunshine yest
imagine how happy i was when i first saw a glimpse
turned :( when sunshine left, thinking i'll nvr see her ever again for months
thenthen, saw her at the foyer! so i became :DD
which reminds me of crezawards yest
kinda okay, gold seats are boring cause of the company of course
aida cheated me and im a :( galxxz
most of the contestants cant sing i swear. wonder how they even got through the autdition
must be desparate case where there's nobody left to choose
the dancing groups are quite okay, some kinda good/really good
cute sec two girls were kinda awesome/cute
then changed to the blue area after break and it was much better i guess
nurul, gayle, paul came
performance was ok, singing obviously much better than our own crescentians. haha sorry
it was a cold and chilly night and my shawl didnt help at all
felt as if i've dressed like an old woman. HAHA
then cousin fetched home and someone wasnt happy cause how am i supp to freakin know tt my cousin's picking me up.
but watever, wat a mood breaker.
reached home, tired and slept x)
i cant put things into words, im upset x(
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11:54 PM
Thursday, April 12, 2007
*takes deep breath*
i guess i give up on amath, for now that is.
cause i find it useless as its kinda impossible to absorb everything overnight and do well, or even pass, for my amath test tmr.
sighhhhhsss
i find no hope at all for me, in amath that is.
found out MANY sec ones whom i know are like in love with rangi (ok maybe im exaggerating a bit. haha)
but yea, its very unbelievable
and like i've said to rasyidah, they should see last yr sec four batch and they'll find that rangi is nothing. GRINS. heh
ok im off, my back is killing me due to my stupid new lousy bag -.-
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5:12 AM
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
Dear honey,
Im sorry for everything, im sorry. I didn't know things will turn out this way. I know sorry cant turn back things; or easy for you, or rather us, to change the situation. I didn't know that what I did could cause you so much harm, so so much harm. Im sorry, it wasn't intentional. Why would I want to hurt someone who means so much to me. Cause I'll never do that to you, you make my world goes round- or rather, used to till lately. Im sorry that you see me as someone special and all I did was to make you a worse/different person. You dont have to be like this honey, you don't have to be like me. Cause im bad, my life's not in control; never. Hanizah was a thing of my past, yes, my past. But I don't know how that can change things or make you realize what you're doing. Im sorry I cant put everything into words or express how much I love you and how much you mean to me. The time we grew apart, I wish you could hear how loudly my heart was breaking. I thought you had forgotten who I am, what we used to be. But I didn't expect you to still come back to me one day. Im sorry, I guess it would be better if we had remain as strangers since then. Im sorry, that's all I can afford to say to you, im sorry.
Lots of love,
Your one and only hanisah <3
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8:53 AM
Monday, April 09, 2007
1.) Sum
2.) CHI TEST!! ='(
3.) emath test! =(
4.) my phone ='( feel like i've lost contact with the world
5.) lit and el mock test which i seriously have no time to take =//
6.) never-ending homework
7.) friends
there, everything that i can think of thats really bothering me
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6:41 AM
Sunday, April 08, 2007
watching this nice/interesting show hanizah told me about.
mmm i think its very nice la, except for the obscene parts. and shane is so not cute pls eew. hahaha
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2:05 AM
life is getting better now; i guess
so sick and tired, think i need some rest
finally had full rename lunch/dinner withe renames yest
flag day was quite productive, earned a free ice creams and a few god-bless-yous
got bribed with a new bag
i dunno wat else to say
oh, we have a new song for our DEAREST RANGI. BEAMS x)
*roll eyes*
ok my back is aching and my blog template is so screwed. im off now~
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1:19 AM
Sunday, April 01, 2007
when is you see is the darkness at the end of the tunnel, there's nth you can do.
i've decided to divide my heart like this:
A=1/2
B=1/5
C=1/5
D=1/10
or maybe its gonne change to...
A=0/10
B=3/10
C=3/10
D=2/5
see the difference
man im crapping cause im bored/sad/depressed
cousin helped me with wireless <333
my life's so horrid.
life is so horrid.
everything is so horrid.
and it's hard/impossible now to keep all the tears behind
life=screwed
if not for
A, B, C and D. <333333
i feel like im quite done with life;
Church;